大約過了一個月，我突然收到一份傳真，詢問我是否感興趣一份通訊工程師的工作？並要我的最新簡歷。這期間，我的同修還說：「他們不太可能雇用你，他們看了你的最新簡歷後，會發現你近五年來未做技術工作，又不熟悉新科技。」他說如果我能被錄取，他就會相信真是佛幫助我這個孝順佛教的人。二天後，該公司正式通知錄用我， 並要我立刻投入工作中。那時，我和同修對這不可思議的恩賜都感覺太意外了。我的同修說：「這太出乎意料了！你的這件事，強有力的向我證明了學佛的好處。我想趁今年宣公上人圓寂十週年的紀念日，去萬佛聖城受五戒！」之後，他就積極的投入了準備工作 ── 遞申請書、照相片等；在今年宣公上人圓寂十週年的紀念日，順利的去了萬佛聖城，受了五戒。
It was in 1990 that I acquired a Buddha statue. I did not know how to recite the Buddha’s name, and I still ate fresh seafood often. It was not until this year, 2005, that I became a vegetarian and began reciting the Buddha’s name. The changes that happened over these years can hardly be described in a short article.
Since childhood, I have always been very stubborn and had a big temper. It alienated and upset friends, classmates, and colleagues around me. However, since I started learning the Buddhadharma, my perspective of the world has changed and my behavior has improved gradually and thus also affected people around me greatly. I will now relate two things that happened recently:
A. An Unexpected Blessing Came My Way
I have been a telecommunications engineer since 1994. Yet I had to quit my job when I got pregnant at an advanced age in the year 2000. Because of the big recession in the high tech industry, I could not go back to my technical job. My friends all felt pity for me. One of my friends strongly urged that I lie on my resume and claimed that he could find people to prove that I had been working in a technical position during those five years. I was swayed by the persuasion of my friends. It is true that the telecom industry is starting to recover in 2005. A lot of technical personnel are needed, especially in the U.S. If I did not fake my resume to get a technical position now, I would lose a golden opportunity forever.
I told my friend I needed to think about it for two days before I replied. During those two days, my heart struggled. Looking back on these five years, it has been fruitless for me to try to find a position in my field. I finally gave up and just left a resume written in 2004 on a free website. I have a great chance now! If someone can vouch for my working experience, isn’t it relatively easy to find a job? But then I thought: I am a Buddhist who has taken the Five Precepts, including the precept against lying. If I faked my resume and got a position, wouldn’t that be cheating the company that hired me? Finally, I told my husband, “I have made up my mind. I would rather be poor for the rest of my life than break a precept!”
After about a month, I suddenly received a fax asking me if I was interested in a telecom engineer position and also asking for my updated resume. Even then, my husband said: “After reviewing your updated resume, they aren’t likely to hire you after they find out that you haven’t done any technical work during the last five years and aren’t familiar with the new technology.” He said if I were hired, he would really believe that the Buddhas are there to support someone like me who is really filial to Buddhism and working very hard on cultivation.
Two days later, I got the formal job offer letter and the company asked me to start work immediately. We were both shocked by this incredible offer. My husband said, “This is unbelievable! This event strongly proves the benefit of studying the Buddhadharma. I want to take the opportunity to go to the City of Ten Thousand Buddhas and take the Five Precepts during the tenth anniversary of Venerable Master Hua’s Nirvana.” He actively prepared his application and photo, and did go to CTTB and receive the Five Precepts as planned.
B. The Bodhisattva’s Teaching in the Dream
Earth Store Bodhisattva helped me get rid of my anger toward my son by letting me experience the pain of losing my son in the dream.
My son is 16 years old this year (2005). I am full of motherly affection as well as high hopes for my children just like all the other mothers in the world. However, because of by bad temper, I often spanked and scolded him because he did not like to study or because his behavior was far from perfect. This made him resent not only me, but also his father and sister. His misbehavior really destroyed my affection for him. Recently, I even hoped that he would receive his retribution soon or die. On occasion, I would remember how close we used to be and would be deeply pained by the terrible state of our relationship now.
The first Sunday when I came to the U.S. to work, I came to Long Beach Sagely Monastery, which was established by Venerable Master Hua. An image of Earth Store Bodhisattva is worshipped here. I asked Earth Store Bodhisattva to help improve the relationship between my son and me. That night, I had a dream.
In the dream, my husband said to me, “Our son doesn’t listen to us and doesn’t like studying. I will beat him to death!” I thought, “Maybe my son will wake up when he is being beaten.” So I agreed! My husband then took a wooden rod about one foot long, and we went to my son’s room. When we went inside, we found that he had already committed suicide. Only his head was left in the room. I held his head in my hands and was filled with complex feelings. His head still felt warm but was getting cold. I held his head crying and asked a Dharma Master, “What should I do?” The Dharma Master said: “I asked you to change your temper before; why didn’t you change? It is too late now.” After a while, my husband found my son’s body somewhere and put it together with his head on the street. He whipped the body as onlookers watched. Then we went home. My husband, my daughter and I were living together then. Our life was quieter, but also much lonelier. Looking at my nice daughter, I thought about my son and regretted losing him. I regretted having scolded and beaten him before. The sharp pain so tore my heart that I could still feel it lingering even after I woke up.
After that day, I recited the Earth Store Sutra once a day for a week and dedicated the merit of recitation to my son, hoping that he would no longer feel resentment. I also have much less resentment towards him now; instead I look upon him as my good teacher and appreciate him. Because of him, I can study Buddhism more vigorously.