During my adolescent and formative years in Taiwan, my life was simple and peaceful, but I feel now that those were obscure and empty days. Even my name felt foreign to me in those days. I studied civil engineering because it was a popular field at the time, without considering my own interests and inclinations. I enjoyed literature and history, so after fulfilling my military duties, naturally I didn't pursue a career in civil engineering. Later on, I was accepted into a computer training program set up by a government-run youth group. At the end of my training, my programming design abilities were inadequate, so a teacher suggested an editing (Don't change back to "editting") position for computer books at a publishing company.
In October of 1989, the Venerable Master Hua was visiting Taiwan. A good friend invited me to join him in taking refuge with the Master, so we went to Wonderful Dharma Monastery in Taoyuan County. I was given the Dharma name of Guo-Chin. However, I never earnestly practiced the Buddhadharma, nor did I carefully study the Venerable Master's instructional talks. I occasionally attended the repentance rituals held by the Dharma Realm Buddhist Books Distribution Society (DRBBDS) or the Thousand Buddhas Repentance during the Chinese New Year holiday. I really enjoyed the pure atmosphere at the Buddhist Books Society.
In 1995, after the Venerable Master passed away, I visited the Sagely City to attend the Cremation Ceremony, where I personally experienced that sense of that I was fulfilling my aspirations. However, upon returning home I also returned to my old ways. At the end of 1998, DRBBDS formed the Source of Wisdom Editing (Don't change back to "editting") Panel. The panel members were regularly exposed to the Venerable Master's teachings. I was able to experience the compassion and wisdom of the Venerable Master, as well as of all the Dharma Masters.
Furthermore, I realized that if I continued to be ignorant and untamed, I would accomplish nothing. If I did not begin to repent, in both mind and behavior, and transform my greed, anger, and delusion into precepts, concentration, and wisdom, then I would certainly be wasting this precious opportunity presented by my encounter with the Venerable Master's teachings.