I came from a simple village in rural Malaysia. My father had six brothers and they all lived together in the same house. There were over twenty people in my generation, so my family is rather boisterous.
There was no proper Buddhism in the village, so whenever my youngest uncle came back from school he would tell us Buddhist stories and teach us Buddhism, meditation and reciting mantras. Sometime he would take us mountain climbing too. In this way he brought Buddhism to our family and the village as well.
When I was little, I was rather naughty and often got into fights with my cousins. I also irritated my parents and made them very angry. I changed for the better after I heard my uncle explain the Buddhadharma to us.
When I was fourteen my uncle rented several cars and took all of us, including my eighty-some-year old grandmother and my four-year old youngest sister to Malacca to take Refuge with the Venerable Master. I was too young to know anything but I bowed and circumambulated along with everyone. At night we listened to the Venerable Master speak Dharma. I was very touched and will never forget the first time I saw the Master, although his Dharma seat was far away from me.
Since then whenever the Venerable Master came to Malaysia I would go to listen to him explain the Dharma. Every time I saw him, tears would roll down my cheeks uncontrollably. My parents thought I was overly superstitious.
When I was fifteen I read the Venerable Master's biography, which made me cry and moved me to vow to leave the home-life with him but my parents would not permit it. Since I was still young I could only wait. After waiting over ten years, I finally made it to the United States and left the home-life in his Way-place in October 1994. I was fortunate to have received complete Shramanerika (novice nun) training in Dharma Realm Sagely City and have just been ordained as a Bhikshuni. Although the Venerable Master has left us physically; his Dharma is still with us. Since it is not easy to leave the home-life, I should rouse my spirits and try my best to be a good disciple.