Before I left home, I liked to meditate and often went to Cixing (Flourishing Compassion) Monastery on Lantao Island in Hong Kong to meditate. The environment was serene and secluded, and it was easy to make progress in meditation. Being there made one feel like wanting to leave the mundane world forever. Three years before becoming a monk, in order to study the Buddhadharma, I moved to the monastery to live and help out with the monastic chores.
While at the monastery, I deeply perceived the illusory nature and brevity of life, and felt that only cultivation was real. And so when the Venerable Master came to Hong Kong to spread the Dharma in 1988, my conditions ripened. I asked to leave the home-life and was accepted.
When I went to Taiwan in 1990, I received various teachings from the Master and from my Dharma-brothers. Because I had many bad habits and faults, I was often admonished. Fortunately, the Master forgave me every time, always moving me to the point of tears. The Master's concern for living beings has left an indelible impression in the heart of every living being he has taught. I experienced this personally.
The following year I went to Canada for training. My Dharma-brothers cultivated vigorously and were never the least bit casual. They spared no effort in cultivating and propagating the Master's Dharma. I learned a lot during the time I spent there.
When the Master entered the stillness in 1995, I had just come to the City of Ten Thousand Buddhas to receive ordination in the three-fold precepts. Although I regret that the Master could not ordain me personally, I believe that if I can practice the Dharma under the guidance of my Dharma-peers, I will still be able to advance along the path of the Proper Dharma. I only hope that when the Master compassionately turns his ship around and returns to save living beings, I will be there to receive his teachings.