I came in contact with Buddhism long before I left home. Because I did not get well along with my mother-in-law, everyday I felt agitated and depressed, and I didn't have an open mind. After I took refuge with the Triple Jewel, I realized that everything has its underlying causes and conditions, and we cannot force things. At that time the Venerable Master came to Taiwan to propagate the Dharma, and one of my neighbors asked to go to Dharma Realm Sagely Monastery to help with cleaning. That was how I had the chance to take refuge with the Master and to receive his teaching. From listening to his taped talks, I knew that the Master had observed filial piety by his mother's graveside for three years. I felt very ashamed and understood that my conflict with my mother-in-law was due to my stupidity and lack of filiality. I wanted to learn more about Buddhism. One day while I was sweeping in the house, I thought, "Wouldn't it be great if I could sweep for more people and let them walk the path of purity?"
In the early days there were only monks at Dharma Realm Sagely Monastery. When the nuns came and took over, and started the Buddhist Training Academy there, I began to draw near them. Seeing them eat one meal a day and seeing the purity of their practice, I secretly wished to be like them--to leave home and cultivate. They constantly encouraged me to recite the Buddha's name and pray to the Bodhisattvas so that I could fulfill my wish soon. Every day I did the morning and evening recitations, and recited the Great Compassion Mantra and Guanyin Bodhisattva's name; and to my surprise, my husband gave me permission to leave the home-life.
On the day I was to leave home, I could hardly bear to part with my husband and children. I didn't know what to do. I knew that ending birth and death is the ultimate task, but I still couldn't resolve the internal struggle. I started to put things in order and clean up, but when the time was up, my husband said, "Just go, you can never finish those jobs." His words made me put down my attachments. Yes, there's no end to these things. I left home feeling grateful and at ease, and stepped forward upon the path to ultimate liberation.