I remember that when I was young, I saw a car accident on the highway. The gory scene of the accident made me feel it was a living hell on earth. It made me realize that life is impermanent and that we cannot avoid the sufferings of birth, old age, sickness, and death. I began to ponder to meaning of life, and I became interested in studying Buddhism, hoping to find a way to be liberated from birth and death.
In 1993 when I came to America and helped with the renovation work at the City of the Dharma Realm, I was touched and filled with deep gratitude and shame by the Venerable Master's extremely considerate concern for all of us. I sincerely requested the Master to shave my head, and I then received the ten precepts of a novice.
After leaving home, I went south to Long Beach Monastery in Los Angeles to live and cultivate with a group of young novices. While preparing to the complete precepts, I was deeply grieved to hear that our kind Teacher had already completed the stillness. After the first week of memorial services, I felt dizzy and became ill. Although I went to various well-known doctors and took the medicines they prescribed, it was to no avail. Then I knew deep down that the illness was a karmic obstacle, and I would have to rely on the aid of the Buddhas, Bodhisattvas, and the Master to help me recover. Every day I knelt in front of the Master's photograph and earnestly repented of all the evil karma I had created. I also sincerely recited the Earth Store Sutra and the Lotus Sutra, and bowed to the Buddhas in repentance. On the day before the ordination ceremony, a turbid energy left my body and gradually dispersed in the air. At that instant a wave of refreshing coolness swept over me, and the illness and pain completely vanished. Through the Master's awesome virtue and the aid of the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, I was able in the end to receive the complete precepts.
After the ordination, I continued kneeling before the Master's picture every day, making vows to emulate the Master's eighteen great vows and to regard teaching and crossing over living beings as my personal responsibility. Although I am not as hale and hearty as I was when I was younger, I want to cultivate honestly and vigorously recite Amitabha Buddha's name. I hope to soon be reborn in the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss, perfect my merit and virtue, and then turn the compassionate boat around and come back to rescue living beings, so that they can all reach the Buddhaland and soon attain Right Enlightenment