Early one morning, the teacher walked into the classroom and said "Good
morning" to me. I didn't even raise my head, but just returned his greeting with
an "En!" while feeling impatient. The teacher scolded me, saying that I was being
arrogant again. I was then asked to read a section of the Fifty Skandha Demon
States which says that if one is unrestrained and arrogant, one will become a
demon very soon. I am always being haughty and arrogant—I really don't know
what to do about it.
Great Master Hong Yi said, "I only wish for failure and imperfection in the
things I do, so that I will always feel great shame and remorse! ... Only then will
I work harder to change my faults and improve. If one succeeds in everything one
does, one will become complacent and conceited. Consequently, one will grow
increasingly arrogant and thus develop all kinds of faults." After reading that, I
asked myself, "Have I greedily sought perfection in everything I do?" Absolutely!
Every day, I want to do everything perfectly. For instance, in memorizing The
Song of Enlightenment by the Great Master Yong Jia: once I finished memorizing
it, I couldn't help feeling arrogant, thinking very conceitedly, "Look! I have a
better memory than all of you!" It's really terrible.
I hope that, from now on, I can imitate the spirit of the Venerable Master and
Great Master Hong Yi to be humble and to discipline myself. I hope that I will
not be picky and seek for perfection in everything, but will just do my best; and
that I will not care about the result, but will just make the effort. Every day, I shall
examine myself three times and look upon myself as the tiniest ant. I dare not be
arrogant anymore, lest I become possessed by a demon.