My mother is a woman of honesty, illiterate but proper of thought. Influenced by her, I’ve known how to recite the Buddha’s name since I was young. After I grew up, I got a bad impression of left-home people when I saw them collecting money from others, until I read the Dharma talks of the Venerable Master Hsuan Hua. My thinking was then rectified, and my impression of the Sangha changed completely. I had had various doubts about worldly matters which were all swept away by the book and I felt more realistic. Reading about the noble Dharma Master Paramiti, who sacrificed himself and underwent many hardships to bring the Shurangama Sutra to China, won my admiration even more.
Although inside had been deeply touched by Buddha Dharma, my bad habits appeared all the same. My family did not realize that my thoughts and goals for the future had changed. One day, I asked Mother, "If I were to leave the home- life, what would you do?" Mother thought I was only joking and commented, "I wish you could accomplish Buddhahood quickly!" Therefore, under such smooth circumstances, I started to make inquiries about Dharma Realm Buddhist Association. In 1988, it happened that the Venerable Master Hsuan Hua led a delegation to Taiwan. Thereafter, the Proper Dharma Buddhist Academy was established. I quit my job with determination and applied to register. Because of my studying with the Great and Wise Advisor, inspired by his superior virtue too, my grandmother, a niece and a colleague who’d been a vegetarian for many years all let go of worldly attachments and left home to cultivate.
Only after I left home did I realize the great responsibility of the Sangha. Lacking a foundation, I arranged time to meditate and investigate the Collection of the Tripitaka. I cherish the time for strengthening myself in order to do my best in the future to contribute to Buddhism. I feel ashamed that my personality is so strong that in dealing with others I seem to harm them more than benefit them. I’d follow along with others joyfully and not criticize people so sharply. I also wish to be supportive of those who have the capability to do things for Buddhism. I wish that the power of my vows were bigger than my karma so I could refrain from becoming entangled with bad habits and harming myself and others. Helping to fulfill others’ achievement is the greatest achievement.