For the Venerable Master's compassionate gaze:
Thinking back to the Chan Session, your disciple weeps bitterly to think that we actually allowed such evil deeds as destroying people's pure practices, killing, stealing, sexual misconduct, and false speech to occur at the Sagely City of Ten Thousand Buddhas. When the Sangha does not value the Dharma, who will propagate the Dharma? Without the Sangha to carry on the Dharma, the end of the Dharma is in sight. Pitifully, we still do not know the importance of this, and continue to be deluded and unaware. We draw near evil companions, turn our back on wholesome teachers, hold deviant views, destroy the appearance of the Sangha, and slander the good roots of others. Offenses such as these are equivalent to shedding the Buddhas' blood and injuring our Master's heart. If we fail to preserve the Buddhadharma, what is the use of being a Sangha? Truly, we are really ashamed to set eyes on the Venerable Master, and we have failed the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas. We have also disappointed Heaven, Earth, and mankind. This disciple painfully saw her Dharma brothers fall and violate the precepts, and hoped to help them, but was powerless to do so. I deeply regretted my usual lack of concentration and diligence. Without holding the precepts myself, how could I influence others to hold them? Not being proper myself, how could I transmit the proper Dharma? Therefore, I, disciple, am willing to take responsibility for all the evil karma of my Dharma brothers, and to repent on their behalf. I only wish to not give the Venerable Master any more burdens. Every time I hear about the Master's illness, I feel terrible. After the Sangha has collectively violated the precepts like this, I dare not imagine the Venerable Master's grief, sorrow, and the worsening of his illness. Venerable Master, we are truly disobedient and unfilial to cause you such distress, one time after another. You alone willingly accept all our karmic obstacles and suffer the pain on our behalf. That is truly the most painful fact in the world. I, disciple, would rather undergo the Venerable Master's suffering in life after life, than see the Venerable Master suffer. With the aid of the Buddhas, the Bodhisattvas and the Venerable Master, I, disciple, vow to eradicate the false and preserve the true, change the deviant and return to the proper, and with the purest body, mouth and mind, and with righteous energy, adorn and purify all worlds., I make this vow hoping the Venerable Master's Dharma-body will quickly regain health, and that he will soon return to the Sagely City of Ten Thousand Buddhas to instruct all of us foolish and confused living beings. Here, I, disciple, wish to represent my Dharma brothers who have broken the precepts to repent before and seek mercy from the Venerable Master. We only hope the Venerable Master will compassionately gather us in. In the interminable night, in the sea of suffering without shore, offense-laden beings suffering in the deep waters and hot fires desperately need you to rescue them. Therefore we disciples all wish the Venerable Master to have a Vajra-body free of illness, to always give the Lion's Roar, send down the Dharma rain, beat the Dharma drum, turn the great Dharma wheel, and vastly save limitless living beings.
Disciple Gwo Ling, Heng Yi bows respectfully
January 28, 1993
Editor's Note: Dharma Master Heng Yi from Malaysia is extremely filial to her mother, Dharma Master Heng Ren, who also left the home-life at the Sagely City of Ten Thousand Buddhas. Dharma Master Yi is also renowned for being a diligent worker. She has often worked alone for many years on tasks that no one else wanted to do, such as recycling, managing the kitchen and cleaning up the environment. Although petite, she has many talents. In speaking the Dharma, she is always direct and to the point. She is straightforward, able to handle many responsibilities, and loves to learn. She does not make discriminations in her work, but actively devotes total attention to the task at hand, and is never careless. Currently she is a Data Editor for
Vajra Bodhi Sea.